So the interwebs are telling me I haven't said anything here since August. My apologies, and I'll try to keep things to at least a weekly basis going forward.

It's been a busy half-year. I'd been in negotiations with housemate/landlord Jeph about buying the place from him when he got diagnosed with Stage 4 pancreatic cancer. He promptly signed his affairs over to his ex and started preparing to die, which is not unreasonable. His ex, however, was, and evidently decided that the house was her ticket to Shangri-La, threw out the deal we'd been working on, and demanded about twice as much. So I hunted for a new place, found one, and moved. And aggrivated a long-known-but-untreated hernia in the process, got surgery for it, and discovered that the promised three-or-four-day recovery was more like a month or three.

While this has been going on I've been working on my Solarpunk Portland program. I've contacted 9 places for sponsorship, and have an appointment with one that has been postponed 3x now, and with another that has expressed a desire for one but not been able to get their act together enough to make one. And I've got seven callbacks to make along the lines of "I haven't heard from you. What's up?"

The basis of the program is fairly simple. I've written up a vision of what a Solarpunk Portland would be like, broken it down into about two dozen projects, and I want to run a seminar aimed at high school and college students in which they either pick one of my projects or propose their own, and develop a formal project proposal and project plan for it. I act as their Program Management office, helping them with their plans and proposals, finding or developing the necessary skill sets to carry them out, and learning how to not merely carry out a project, but how to do so as part of a coordinated program.

I'm nervous about my planning for the seminar, because as I perceive it it's going to be almost entirely improv. Going in, I don't know who my students are or what their skills, desires, and needs are, or what projects they might be interested in or abilities they have with which to pursue them. Mostly, I want to build excitement and enthusiasm, guide them in accepting ownership of their own projects, and then play support crew while they take their idea and run with it. Sounds a lot like parenting, now that I think about it.

More mundanely, we've just had our snow for the winter and have started in on the rain that's going to melt it all. We've just had our first actual consequence of the weather; the apartment complex laundromat runs off a cellphon app, and so do the registers of the market across the street -- so we can't do laundry using our cellphones and we can't get quarters to do it the old-fashioned way. So, no laundry 'til they get this straightened out. I'm still planning on staying in my room for another couple of days, because I don't like wading through slush. And how's *your* end of the world running?
Okay, removing and replacing the battery worked, and apparently this is a known issue with this kind of phone. I don't like it, but at least now I know what to do about it.

I've got two major projects to be working on, and can't think of a thing to do for either of 'em. If you have any suggestions about Solarpunking Portland or justice in Oregon, please do let me know.
I need to call a mortgage officer. My phone won't work. It powers up when I press the button, but then doesn't recognize that it's being swiped to order it to open. Not just my finger; I passed it to my housemate also and it wouldn't work for him either.

So I have a momentarily useless phone. Phooey.

Fury

Sep. 20th, 2020 02:37 pm
I'm trying to read Joe Stiglitz's book "People, power, and profits", and I keep getting too angry to sit still and look at a book.

I met Joe at the Battle for Seattle retrospective last year, and schmoozed with him for an hour or so after he gave his talk. I wanted to talk about the cultural issues he only mentioned briefly in describing his book. He described himself as "a world-class economist, a second- or third- string politician, but this culture stuff really baffles me." And now I'm actually *reading* the book, and it really bears him out. Economics, fine, he's great at that. Politics, okay, he's entitled to a professional opinion, and he's not clueless. Culture could dance up to him in a bright purple tutu and bite him on the ass, and he'd look baffled and say "What?"

So far I've made it into chapter 8 of 11. So far that's been seven and a quarter chapters of "Oh, and here's yet another felony committed by a gang of Republicans/corporatists/industrialists, all in cahoots with each other." This brings into focus something I've known for a long time, but in a sort of fuzzy, unfocused manner: The Republican Party is a criminal organization.

The Democrats are no prize either, but there's a lot of difference between a criminal organization and an organization that happens to encompass a lot of criminals. The latter is like some of the bowling alleys my cousin Cory went to tournaments at when he was younger -- some of the leagues were largely composed of mafiosi, or yakuza, or whatever the gangster-flavor of that particular neighborhood was -- it's New York; they've got a lot of variety. But they were there to bowl, not to shake people down. I don't know, maybe some shaking down did occur out in the parking lot -- but that wasn't what they were there for.

And so the Democratic Party does have a lot of felons in it, and many of them are there so they can abuse their positions of power to steal piles of cash, rape underage girls, or what have you. But that's not what the party is *for*, and they know it, and they make reasonable efforts to keep it out of public view.

In contrast, the Republican Party *exists* to commit, further, and conceal felonies. That's the entirety of what they're about; there's nothing else there. Fine, if we get down to the individual party members who don't have an organizational role in it we'll find a lot of fools, whose only "crime" is an astonishing amount of gullibility. But anyone involved in the workings of the party is a felon, a fascist, or both. And possibly *also* a fool, those sets can overlap.

The Rethugs are going to do everything in their power, occasionally even straying within the bounds of legal activity if it furthers their purposes, to steal the election in November. Close the post office, purge the voter roles, close the polling places, anything they can think of. But at this point I think they've fucked up so badly they'll fail, even with all the cheating. Joe Biden will become President, the Democrats will have a skinny majority in the senate and a veto-proof House. Will this make everything better?

No. Biden is the Democratic Reagan; an amiable ventriloquist's dummy who can remember his lines and even on a good day improvise a bit. (Reagan was vastly better at the improv, tho'.) And his handlers, and about 3/4 of the Democrats in Congress, are the same kind of amoral opportunistic crooks as sit on the other side of the aisle.

Joe was trying to argue that the economic problem was also a political problem, and needs to be solved politically. He's right as far as he goes, but he doesn't go far enough. The political problems are cultural problems, and we have to solve them culturally before we can express those solutions politically.

We have allowed ourselves to degrade to a culture in which might really *does* make right, money can buy anything, and there's no such thing as human worth or dignity unless you can pay cash for it. This is a horrible culture, and it might be because all my friends are "poor" by Trump standards, but I don't know *anyone* who has anything nice to say about it, let alone approving of it. I am pleased to be able to admit to knowing half a dozen politicians here who know what their jobs are and are actively trying to do them -- admittedly, out of a sample size of about 30, and I can't say much nice about the rest of them. But that's a lot better than the national average.

If we build a better culture, we can build better politics. And if we can build better politics, we can use them to re-create a world class economy. Let's get started.
I feel I have to apologize for mostly turning to this medium when I'm feeling creatively frustrated and need to vent. While it *is* my metaphorical electronic living room, and I get to complain here if I want to, it's not polite to wait 'til the guests arrive and *then* start venting. So, some good news: I updated the Justice Oregon Facebook page (https://www.facebook.com/groups/2442255356066043 ) on time ten times in a row, and was only one day late on the 11th post. 12th is tomorrow, and I haven't written it yet, which is one of the things I'm feeling bitchy about. I'd started with a four-post buffer, and burned through it almost immediately. Maybe this coming week I can build it back up again; that would bean writing one post a day next week. They're only about 600 words, that should be doable -- but I want to make every post six hundred words of relevant, coherent content, which is a bit tougher.

Housemate Liam and I now have a container garden on the porch; six 13" pots with pebbles, potting mix, and plants in them, tied to a just-reinforced porch rail. The bell pepper is looking a bit sickly, but everything else is thriving nicely -- eggplant, basil, thyme, oregano, mint, scallions, and one other I'm forgetting at the moment. And Liam bought a used car, which means we're no longer reliant on my freight bike to transport stuff.

I've clarified my idea of taking my Solarpunk Portland vision and doing an academic seminar with it, and am now writing the vision document the seminar will use as reference material. I'll need to do two short (2-page max.) formal documents to accompany my application, but those will just be administrative summaries -- colleges want to see a syllabus, and everyone wants to see an abstract. More on the vision doc. shortly; it's being a bear.

So that's things here; how's by you?
It would appear I haven’t updated this thing for a third of a year, for which my apologies.


I am not being *emotionally* effected by the quarantine. However, )
So yesterday sorta didn't happen. And neither did last Wednesday. Yesterday I got to the post office to mail Zack's birthday present, and discovered they are no longer open on Saturdays, which provides a clue as to how often I go to the post office. I came home from that, unaware of being more than mildly upset, took a nap, and it seems like after my body got up from the nap, I never got back up with it. Wednesday was supposed to have started with me making my JwJ Phone Tree calls, and I don't know why or even if I might find that stressful, but it never got done and neither did anything else 'til Brian picked me up to go to his house for the holiday.

I cannot express with sufficient emphasis how annoyed I am with this phenomenon. Despite the damaged-and-partly-repaired pump, I *like* this body, and if it's up and doing things I want to be with it and direct those things. And I have things I want to be doing.

So today I want to make those missing calls, arrange for travel to Redondo Beach and an AirB&B while I'm there, start scanning the web for interesting things to do with Dad while I'm there, and then do the JO site walkthrough, which is stressful but at least I know *why* it is stressful. Bonus points if I can figure out where the Fireman story is going next. First, tho', to the grocery store as I'm out of salsa for my morning grain stew.

I have no clue why those "out of body experience" people are so excited. The trick is staying *inside* the body.

Reset.

Oct. 22nd, 2019 10:54 pm
I get days like this last one every now and again, and I really, really hate 'em. )
I finally got in touch with Dad. As predicted, he had no idea that his phone was misbehaving, or why. He's going to call Verizon tomorrow morning to try to work it out; he's still not up on the idea that the modern business world runs 24/7. That last is OK; I can deal with it.

And I sent a brief note to Zack, suggesting we reassume a speaking relationship. We'll see how that goes.

I think I'm making good progress with Grant on getting the Oregon Justice Democrats website up. Once it's up, we can use it as a test-platform for developing a Positive Proxy application and the Citizenry-building project. I've just made contact with RepresentUs; we'll see where that goes, also.

Does anybody remember the name of the mythological Greek guy to whom the gods granted eternal life, but *not* eternal youth?
A very good yesterday -- counseling appointment, met with a new candidate (and suggested he put that off for a couple of years), phone banking for Albert, and a DSA-For-Bernie meeting. Today, much less -- an oncology appointment (very slight chance I might have something, so they want to check), a blood test, and more phoning-for-Albert.

My thoughts, however, are on v3 of Metaculture. It has forked; I need to do one version for CES and one version for Sunrise. So I'm hoping for time between oncology and Albert to thoroughly study the CES website, and if time further permits read over all my own stuff to make sure I know how I started and where I am before I take a swing at finishing it off.

Still having trouble making exercise happen; maybe move it to evenings? I dunno. Do need to make it happen, tho'.

So, world here good. Yours?
Back when I was working on the LAMI tall ships, I was often running the galley. It was common for five of us to be working there, with about 4x6 feet of floor space, and not bumping into each other and getting along fine. My current housemate, OTOH, seems to be capable of filling our 10'x10' kitchen to capacity all by himself. We have four counter work-spaces, the sink, and the stove, and he can come in to get a cup of coffee and have all six locations filled to capacity; I have no clue how he does it. I've learned to just leave the kitchen 'til he's done, as nothing's going to get done while he's there anyway.

Portland doesn't have a tall ship. It'd be nice to do something about that. I'm kinda overbooked as it is, tho'.
So yesterday I put in a few real useful hours (wrote up a new project proposal, sent letter to Portland Forward with 8 proposals attached) at the start of the day, and then turned into a potato. A friend suggested I needed to do this, which is possible, but when I try to figure out 'why?' it engages the rationalization engine and I can't get any useful answers. Maybe I was physically tired from moving all the storage bins the day before. Maybe I was emotionally tired from sorting through old stuff. Maybe all the medical testing has been getting me down--I go see Yet Another Specialist in a couple of weeks, to rule out a miniscule probability I have something Really Awful. (Some blood test was high twice, and then normal. The regular doc was guessing what that meant as much as I was.)

So, I had a flat day, put it aside and have a better one. I'm going to go back to bed as soon as I'm done both here and with daily scrum with Zack, because five hours sleep last night isn't enough. (five hours often is, but not now.) So, out of bed maybe eightish, breakfast and meds, exercise and shower, brush teeth, dress and get to work. I'm still looking for another environmentally-centered project proposal; Jules of Cascadia Commons had said she had an idea and would email it to me. Not received yet; give her a noodge. Write up the shellfish-farm proposal. Find contact data for Sunrise and Wayfinding and use it. Write Sonny at Renew. Go to the Center for Bio Diversity's Wolf event. Stop, that's enough.
So today I went up to Rainier and unloaded my trailer while Brian screwed things to the roof. Got everything out, and then Brian came down off the roof and did most of the work of nailing up a couple of sheets of Masonite board to the roof, holding the insulation panels in place. Original intent was to also do the front wall and front sides, but we ran out of steam, repacked everything not sorted to the garbage back into the trailer, and called it a day.

Given yesterday's urology appointment, I wore a diaper, but as we were working on Brian's farm, I could pee on a bush at need, so I didn't have to spend the day in a soggy diaper. Bladder control is back up to about a one-minute warning, which isn't real good, but I'll take any improvement I can get. Urologist had warned me about the earlier bleeding, but not about the loss of control -- but he did say the after-effects from the test would last at most 3 days, and probably 2. So I'm hopeful for a normal tomorrow.

Next time in Rainier, help Brian finish screwing down the flashing on the roof -- about half done right now, but sufficient to keep things dry inside when it rains tomorrow -- unload it again, seal the four rat-entrances at the front with steel wool and expanding foam, insulate and Masonite the front and front sides, and load it all back up again.

Most immediately, write back to Julia at Portland Forward, noodge Isabela and Samantha at NextUp, write up my two new project plans, and find out who to contact at Sunrise and Wayfinding and do so. My contact at Renew is Sonny Mehta, but until I have the two new plans done I don't have anything to say that he'd be interested in hearing.

I was hoping to have enough energy to shower before falling over, but it ain't happening. G'night.

Ow.

Aug. 6th, 2019 10:36 pm
Today started with a urology appointment. I have decided that I do not like having cameras shoved up my dick, no matter how tiny they are. This likely generalizes to shoving things up my dick in general, but I do not desire to perform the experiment to find out.

The cardiology appointment which followed was routine, and I went from there to the Indivisible weekly protest outside Sen. Wyden and Rep. Blumenauer's offices. That turned out to be a waste of time; same old people doing same old stuff -- only they've been doing it long enough now that the news stations have started to notice it, I saw 3 professional cameras in evidence. So I left to get lunch at the nearby mall, and somewhere in there my body figured out it had been insulted and I lost bladder control and started peeing blood. Fortunately, I made it to a bathroom on time -- this time.

Foolishly, I decided to continue on my Good Samaritan errand, and went to Megan's house to check out the mess her suddenly-departing husband had left of their mid-renovation kitchen. I'd stopped peeing blood at this point, but bladder control had not returned, and I peed myself twice en route. Got done with that, got home, put clothes in laundry, and spent the rest of the afternoon peeing a painful quarter-cup every five minutes or so.

We already knew my prostate was enlarged, and as a result of the camera-poking we have determined that my urinary system is otherwise fine. Yay. Still, ow.

Tomorrow I go up to Brian's for another round of work on the trailer -- probably wearing Depends while so doing. TWo or three steps to finish the roof and be done with that part, and I also want to get everything *out* of the trailer and inventoried, and put in the insulation on the front part and roof and nail plywood over it to seal it in. For bonus points, install the second window. Window or not, then repack the trailer with everything I'm not throwing away, and back to Portland. That's probably going to end up being two days work. I also want to get my response off to Julia at Portland Forward, and continue researching Sunrise, Wayfinding, and Renew. Also continue writing Iron Fireman, detailing his neglect by his namesake and his turn to NextUp to become the VoteBot.

That's enough planning. Bedtime.
So yesterday I started by writing and sending off a couple of difficult contact letters to organizations that are now making loud claims about doing what I've been doing for years -- "We should really talk" letters. I also hung up the robot suit from last night, and made several necessary phone calls. Then I got a haircut and went to volunteer at a NextUp -- ex-Bus Project -- canvassing, and met two high schoolers, one named Giuseppe and the other whose name I didn't retain. The three of us have an as-yet unscheduled breakfast date.

The structure of what I want to create is a Program Support Office. It would be useful to name the program it's supporting, but I haven't done that yet and I'm not sure I should -- maybe I should let Giuseppe name it, or one of his cohort. There's only one key difference between a PSO and a Program Management Office like I set up at Bowne or Novix -- no command authority. I'll get back to that later. For a working name, let's call it the Metaculture Program. I have six project proposals for it, which are in writing but in bad need of editing, which is on today's list. Those are Citizenry, Positive Proxy, Arcology, Cascadia/Steampunk Synthesis, oh-damn-I-forgot-one, and Metaculture.

There are three other organizations I've identified so far which are also doing the same thing, for which I need to find contacts and send "we should talk" letters. Also on today's list. Even without the mundane tasks of weekly scrum and getting some exercise, that's a hell of a list. And I'm feeling really good about it and want to get moving on it. Daily scrum with Zack in fifteen minutes, then I can get back to work. Yay!
I am back from the Bus Project Renaming Party. They are now NextUp, proving once again that hiring marketing consultants is generally catastrophic. Robot suit was a big hit, but didn't give me a chance to table and hand out papers as I had hoped. But I now have draft copies of my papers to edit, mark up, illustrate, and so on. And new bizcards.I've already followed up with 'em via email.

New plan is to contact all the different political groups that are trying to co-opt the youth vote, and use 'em as platforms to help the youth co-opt *them*, instead. And I got a ride home with Spencer, who is interesting.
Presentation day is Friday. I have seven papers I want done by then, and I'm done with three and 90%+ done with #4. And there's also getting 'em printed; my local Office Max closed last month, so I need to find a new place. Still to be done are Metaculture, Cascadia/Steampunk Synthesis, and Macroeconomic Modeling.

And I've figured out that for the second edition, each paper should have two half-page illustrations, and take up *both* sides of the page. That's for later, tho'. Right now is going to be interfered with by spending tomorrow and Wednesday getting a sleep study done, so the Doctor can be as sure as I am that I'm getting terrible sleep. Evidently me telling him is insufficient evidence.

I've done my first set of calisthenics with my new-to-me dumbbells. Maybe later today I'll do another set. Eventual objective is three sets of three different exercises, with no two adjacent sets working the same muscle groups. Two minutes per exercise, a minute rest between sets. Not leaping straight into that right away, but not going to go a day without doing *something* any more.

Half a dozen bits of contact work to do today, and I want to get one paper written. Might as well get started.
It went as well as could be expected. We blew the socks off the low-level corporate flunkey we met with, the limit of whose authority is to buck us one level up the chain of command, which he has agreed to do, and I am to call him late tomorrow morning to find out how that went.

I didn't have to rely on the Depends I bought for the occasion, which was pleasant. (I was *not* about to try grabbing my dick with the channelock pliers the costume uses for hands.) OTOH, I now know better than to try wearing this on the long bus trip I'd need to get to the week-from-Friday event; I'll canvass my friends for who has a car and is feeling charitable.

And I picked up the bison meatloaf ingredients. Might make that tonight. Then to get to work on ops research.

Gone Gabe

Jul. 14th, 2019 05:47 am
Gabe has gone back to NY. I'm still working on *how* to do creative-and-political writing, campaign research, and 15 events next week. Time management itself would be easy; this is harder. Each class of work requires a completely different mindset, and I still need to devise and implement hot kernel-swapping in my brain. And the pile of papers grew another one, 'Fury'. Why it's not merely good but *necessary*, and how to handle it and what to do about it.

Gabe's a great guy, he could probably figure out how to have fun while literally on fire. I'm not that talented, but can mostly follow his lead. He and Grandpa got along well, and there were no out and out catastrophes with Carole, so I'll call that a win.

I will have to figure out on an ongoing basis how to deal with Dad, who's still *mostly* there but not *all* there, if you get the distinction. While the cause of this is easy to spot -- his poor judgment in getting involved with Carole -- I need to err on the side of respecting his agency rather than leaping to his defense. This is out of practicality, not ethical issues -- he has always been and no doubt continues to be very protective of that agency, and will turtle up immediately if he has any suspicion it is being challenged.

I owe J a call, which will be mildly logistically tricky because she's at her best in the evenings, and during and shortly after dinner are the only remaining times when Dad is reliably social. A bit more than shortly after, and the TV eats him.

And so, to quote a departed-but-still-dear author, it goes.
Hi, all -- I've finished my first draft of a white paper on Positive Proxy, and would appreciate your input and commentary, )
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